hi baby girl<3 I love you to the moon and back! you were the most amazing friend in this world<3 I cant explain the pain I am feeling. I wish there was something I could do to go back in time. im hoping I can meet the guy from back to the future and have him take me back to spend every minute with you! I am trying my hardest to smile when I think of you. but as u proly can see I am so sad and still cant believe this is real. but I am so glad I met you! I can remember the first day we met... we didn't like each other!! lol cuss I couldn't believe u were older then me cuss u were so little and so freaking cute!<3 and we both realized we were ment to be the best of friends!<3 so it started with hanging out every single day and going to the the store to get hot Cheetos and mountain dew but we always had to share cuss we only had enough money for 1 of each!!<3 and ur laugh ..o ur little laugh it plays over and over in my head! it is the cutest unforgettable laugh ever! and when u were grounded id still come over and sit in ur room all day while we did make up and played dress up! and while u laughed at my fro!! ive always wished I could take ur place cuss I knew wanted to be normal. and if it wasn't for u ryan proly would have never grew the balls to ask me out! and now here we r 7 years later with a beautiful baby boy who u loved so much<3 and gosh sometimes u made me so mad!! come on april lets walk over here its only like 1 block or 2...5 blocks umm nikki where is this place...were almost there...hugh nikki u lil monster!! and finally a mile later we arrived!! and u knew I hated walking<3 and I am so glad we got to go to cedar pointe together with our matching hats!! we never wanted to take them off!! and our last conversation on the phone was I was so sick I couldn't come get my nails done and I said to u I don't know how u and my mom have gone threw what u did. u guys r seriously the strongest woman I know and still r so kind and loving and appreciate everything an everyone. and u giggled with ur little laugh and said u r strong to april.. and u said I hope u feel better soon and just call me when u do... and by then it was to late:( if I just would have known....I so would have quit everything and would have been at ur house all day everyday till I drove u bonkers!! another memory u thought it was so funny when we went to coney island and jayden had his teeth pacifier and all the waitress were cracking up! while jayden was dipping his pickle in ranch and apple sauce..eww !! and then ur laugh went off again!! u were such a happy person! I loved it! I truly miss u more then words can say my lil nikki!! I love you so much may u continue watching over ur family and all ur friends! love u sugar snap<3 xoxo always on my mind and my heart u will be<3